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Not dead, only sleeping

The constellation of Confidence is in ascension, that of Workload is sinking below the horizon, and the last wisps of the faint and short-lived Eager New Boy Persona cluster are spiraling into the galaxy-swallowing black hole of Slack. Yes indeed, it seems that the stars are right for my return to LiveJournal...

I've had a job with net access for a couple of weeks now, but it's only today that I've finally got round to posting rather than just catching up. I had intended to post a massive, all-encompassing post about trips to Canada and Glastonbury, music heard and seen and played to adoring crowds, friends met and missed, fun going out and fun staying in, the despair and... errr... slightly lessened despair of job seeking, in short: a few months of living distilled into one post of unsurpassed richness and humanity that would only require a few more <br> tags to make it an epic poem destined to be considered one of the finest works in the Later English language.

Having mulled this concept like bad red wine for a few days, I suffered a blinding flash of the obvious: this was near-identical to a problematic tendency that I recognised in myself a few years ago and have been (vaguely) striving to overcome ever since, with limited but heartening success. This tendency was thinking 'I haven't spoken to X for ages, I must give them a ring or send them an email. No, but wait, it has been so long that this must be no ordinary chatty greeting, but something worth the wait.' This would, of course, result in me never actually getting round to contacting them at all, as the longer I stalled, dithered or prepared, the more impressive the call had to be. After too long I realised that this was dumb, and people were just pleased to hear from me when I got round to it, not disappointed that it hadn't been more exciting. I can only trust that this analogy holds for LJ too...

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Dec. 18th, 2002 12:55 am (UTC)
Thank you.

The magic link was actually something I discovered from a post aphonia made a few days ago. She mentions finding something that really blew her mind, and linked to what looked like my LiveJournal. "?", I thought, lucid as ever. "I blew someone's mind? Which post could it have been? The set-list from the last time I DJed, or perhaps some moaning about how pointless my job is?" Not altogether to my surprise, it transpired that this mind-blowing article was nothing to do with me, and that the misleading link was to represent that fact that it was no longer where aphonia had found it, and was, as such, an empty one: <a href="">link</a>. My understanding of the mysteries of HTML is not deep, but this seems to produce a link to the page you're actually viewing, which I assumed for most people would be their own LJ page. Nice touch, I thought.
Dec. 17th, 2002 10:45 am (UTC)
There you go, off having a "life" again. You're making the rest of us look bad.

No, not really. But you are putting ideas in my head... dangerous ones. Such as: What if I spend all the time updating my LiveJournal doing something like travelling and seeing friends?

Good to see you, though.

Dec. 18th, 2002 02:27 am (UTC)
I may have given an erroneous impression. In fact, thinking about it, that's part of the fun of LJing for me: the opportunity to give only the edited highlights of my life. However, if it will help stave off those dangerous thoughts, I feel that I should confess that as well as the 'life' I hint at having experienced, there was an awful lot of moping around in bed all day, playing computer games and listening to bad music played by irritating daytime radio DJs whilst being painfully aware that money is hemorrhaging from my bank account like... well... coincidentally, the first image that springs to mind is yours. I profoundly wish that it hadn't...
Dec. 18th, 2002 08:41 am (UTC)
Eh, it's okay. It'll be better. It would be nice to see you more than just once in a blue moon, tho.

Dec. 17th, 2002 05:44 pm (UTC)
Feh, what a crap post. You could have made it worth the wait...

I like the first paragraph though.
Dec. 18th, 2002 03:54 am (UTC)
Feh, what a crap post. You could have made it worth the wait...

Could have. Didn't.

I like the first paragraph though.

On rereading, it seems to be an unholy combination of H.P. Lovecraft and 'I'm Sorry I Haven't A Clue'. I'm wearing my influences on my sleeve, it seems.
Dec. 18th, 2002 02:14 am (UTC)
Very poetic :)
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